im the uptown girl.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

~::*::~*wonders*~::*::~

i always wonder about something when i drift in to day dreaming..so many "what if's" are filling up my mind everytime i do so.. like what if the sky was never really blue or what if clouds are like cotton candy? hehehe..or what if i was this or that..would "HE" like me for that?..or..why does love need to have a lot of sacrifices.. i really don't get it..well i do..but i only get it when the time it was needed to be remembered was over..(sigh) and about love.. it's really hard to love a person when he/she only thinks that your just friends..it's like what to do? "to give up" or "to hold on" what if you gave up and he/she also has feelings for you and was afraid to show it..what if to hold on?..what if you were the only one who was holding on?..wouldn't it be a waste if you just holded on for nothing?..well you could just say that love is like that but still.. there's no better solution for everything.. it always has to have sacrifices.. and when it comes to love the "friends" word really hurts.. but if the love wasn't that deep to have friends then it's good.. some parents in my case think that relationships would ruin me.. although I myself wouldn't like to have a boyfriend now, it still hurts that they don't trust me.. i mean, we communicate alright, but when it comes to that i feel awkward about telling them something like that coz' im afraid that they'll just lecture me about having relationships and the trust they gave me will be lessen coz' they'll think that "how could she know things like this or that".. it's like they don't trust the world when it comes to love.. i know they only want the best from me but still.. even though i know that i will not have a boyfriend until i have a job(most likely)... it won't hurt if they gave me the amount of trust they give to each other right?..it's like they'll only trust me when im old enough to join in their conversations..which i know will take a very long time..harhar..^ ^

~::*::~about me~::*::~

bet you wonder why the about me stuff had to be 2nd huh?..well coz' i really wanted to share the problems stuff first..(sigh)..ü

about me..

Name:Patricia Alexis Kho Andrade
Age:14(for now anyways..)

~::*::~Stuffs,Stuffs,Stuffs~::*::~

My Japanese name would be Hamanao Kumiko
I live in a province where lanterns are everywhere and internet cafe's are a must..
im very open-minded to people i get close to..
i consider all the people whom i've come to be friends with sometime as my bestfriend..
i love oriental food..(yumm!!..)
im a sucker for anime,dogs and pretty much everything..
i tend to be kalog when i know the person well..
i always remind myself to think positive in life but i only remember it when the event was over and start regretting it then..harhar
i love God and my family above anythin else.
i don't get my family sometimes..one time thay say that you're already old enough for this blah blah blah..then when it comes to boys or boyfriends and stuff like that they tend to over react and they start saying that im too young for that stuff yet..(sigh)
i don't like people who step on other people so they could get the attention they want..
i think that the internet is the only soultuion to your assignments..harhar..ü
i love reading!..books to fanfictions..i love it..!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

~::*::~problems,problems.problems~::*::~

finally!..i get to post something here for the first time after making my blog..lol..

well the thing is this..i really can't figure out myself sometimes..i know this is a common problem but still i can't fix it..i mean one time you are talking to someone with a big smile on your face then the next time just because you saw him/her taliking to someone you get a green-monster-jealousy-feeling.. i can't controll it especially when that someone is one of my closest friend/s..well i guess it's not a common problem with my girlfriends i guess just with my guy pals..i can't believe that im getting that jealousy feeling sometimes..argh!..

and what's the thing with some boy's?..one time they're really that close-open minded-person then the next they just avoid you without any reason?..i don't get it.. they say they're your best friend but then they start to avoid you the next time you talk?..i mean isn't that just pathetic?..only a few of them realize what girls are feeling when they do that to them..duh?!..well i guess some boys are really just boys huh?..